Invisibletake a deep breathe and count to ten .what just happened ... will never happen again .your hands start to tremble; the sink is cold .you tell yourself you are strong; you are bold .don't look in the mirror and stare .this isn't right ... this isn't fair .don't think about it too much, or you'll go insane .tears and blood make their way down the drain .what just happened ... to me ?why do you feel so gross and dirty ?feeling so worthless and wasted .so unloved , abandoned, and tasted .having given them everything, every part .why did they turn, and break your heart ?shattering every piece, leave you broken .every
The EscapistIt is really insomniaIf you're keeping me awake?Is it the infatuationThat made me start to shake?Is it so peculiarIf you make me feel brand new?Is it some kind of obsessionThat I have with you?I watch you when I feel lonelyIs that so wrong?I think of you when they hurt meSo what if that's all day long?You make me feel so happyWhat if that's all I have?Should that be taken awayJust because it sounds mad?Because right now in real lifeThere's no happily ever afterWhen I see something I don't likeI can't just skip the chapterOr quickly press fast forwardOn a TV remote controlReal life is but a woundAnd you help fill the h
Leave.Leave me alone!Is that so hard to do?!You don’t care about my feelings,They are nothing to you!What have I done wrong?I just want you to leave,You hurt me more and more,So how can I believe?Your words mean nothing,Your apologies are fake,Just stay away from me!How much pain can I take?!You got what you want,But what about me?I only want one thing,I want to be free!I can’t take it anymore!Every night and day,You just refuse to leave,So at least stay away!
Tears don't bring the dead back to lifeIt's shadow times and sunken livesin a grave of mud and flesh remainsthey've killed many souls with bloody knivesand weaved their ladders out of veins."Away!" they shout when death has criedand off they run, away from pride. "Away!" they scream when death has blownso off they go, when blood has flown.Then there's the boom of drums and trumpetswail. Men fall to graves; they've pain their debts.There's rust in bones, and tears at homeAnd strange lost love that walks alone.There's a pretty, kind lady looking out the windowlittle does she know that now she's a widow.And the little young boy who sleeps in her armshad just lost a father down by the dams.A beautiful girl lies beneath the pine trees,staring at the skies and all what she seesis the bright red sun, bleeding on the horizonthe girl shuts her eyes and death brings her ease.Once an old man had a wonderful familywho lived on the other five chairs aroundthe kids would play and jump so cheerilyfilling a quie
Plenty of TimeThere's still plenty of timeShe said to the windAnd the wind whispered backNot for those who have sinned;Not for those who cryIn the deep of the night,Not for those who dieIn the darkest of light.There's still plenty of timeShe laughed to the boyBut he didn't laugh backFor he found no joy;Not for those who slaveThrough the long, hard days,Not for those who paveThe path for your ways.There's still plenty of timeShe sighed to the moon;The moon knew there wasn'tWhen you're filled with gloom;Dear girl you must learnTime's not what you think,What you get, you must earnWhen your life's on the brink.There's still plenty of
Society is Screaming Society is screaming so loud, I can hear it internally Inside my mind, bouncing off the boundaries All the dishonor, poverty, lies and disgust sound eternally I tell the world, warn them of this coming storm, they tell me it's imaginary The ones who are here to help, they lie through their teeth and lungs Lock me in, "fixing" me up, sending my mind reeling Defiantly I fight, bare arms and legs, as they fill me with drugs They've sent me so far from home, I'm so numb, I can't even feel my feelings My mind is overflowing with images I don't own I remain silent, let them believe it's working Moving slowly through this twisted life
SanctuarySanctuaryI don't know you enoughTo even know your last nameBut I do know that you've had it roughAs I have felt the sameBut you've suffered more in your distressMaking my past sorrowsSeem nothing more than a jestKnowing atonement heralds tomorrowEven so, I know the painAnd the committal to aidIn my heart has lainOf course, if you desire it madeMy heart, I swear, brokeWhen I heard of your troubled emotionsAnd the stress driving you to provokeAnd this stayed in my notionMaybe I could give comfortMake the past easier to overlookTogether, rid of our contortsAnd be each other's retreating nooks.
my english homeworkFallen angel wondering forevermoreBlack winged angel flying nevermoreMy guardian angel wondering in the abyssI wish I did not missMy guardian angel forever moreHaunting me to the coreMaking me go insaneForever in painWondering soullesslyImmortality lonelinessCrimson stainsOf my eternal painsLeaving my emotions behindMy love deniedAbandoned for lifeWaiting for my knifeTo redeem my self My inner selfLiving in my own despairWanting to repair
Lucifer and VisitorThe Devil mourned his homeland lostUpon a stone in exile deepBeneath the great earth’s hardened crustWhere fires rage inside the seaMuch too far for father skyTo see the rock where The Devil lieAs he lamented, sullen, wearyExpression that of sorrow trueA Thing appeared, and very clearlyCracked the gates of Lucifer’s tombThe grin that danced upon his faceFound hell to be the quaintest placeThe thing approached and asked him kindly,“Why do you mourn your banishment?All the land above I seeBut I’ve never seen an armamentSo well hidden from my mighty eyesWhich see all things as they live a
The LiarWhen I found out the truthThe filthy thing under the bedI screamed and howledAnd learned to hate;For the truth was bitingBitter and coldLike a burning hailstormThat I wished had never unfoldI kept a secretTold a lieI spoke words of hatredFelt something wilt and dieThe world was fauxAn unattainable fantasyHopes were fed to monstersIn my blood that cried blasphemyI don't think you knewBecause you'd hate me if you didTo know our common blood was falseOf me, you'd surely ridSo I cut you off firstThen you'd never have the chanceTo look under the bedAnd pierce me through with a lanceI destroyed you firstSo I'd not be
Whence To WhereYou surprise me and confuse me,And make me love you more.The brightness may undo me,The darkness I adore.There's so much grey,And so much painThat brings rejuvenation.I fall and sink,But then I blinkBefore illumination.Whence to where is what I asked,But much is coming clear.My sadness fading here at last,And with it all my fears.You've brought me out,How can I countThe times you've soothed my soul?From where I was,You may becomeThe star that leads me home.Light and dark will mold and mixTill grey is what I see.A calming sight that seems to fixWhat once was wrong with me.
GenderGender was complicatedfor me at least.Unlike the othersit wasn't so blackor whitemore like a very large scalefilled with shadesof confusion.Male?Not exactly.Female?Not quite.I wanted thebroad shouldersthat men obtainedby nature. I achedfor the clavicles that showed whether you were average or thin. I desired the chiseled jaw,the strong armsthat could makeany girl feelsafe, the deep voice thatcould make herswoon with the right words.However, I longed forthe graceful walk that females could masterso naturally.The soft voicethat could make any manquestion his feelings.I needed the long fingersthat woul
Glass HeartFragile hearts that beat for love,Seem to never get enough.Encased in a glass that’s stained with red,A reminder of the blood it’s shed.Over the years it has hardened from pain;Careful to ever love again,But some memories are engraved in gold,Reminding the heart of what love can hold;The promises behind just one kiss;The little moments you know you’ll miss. The empty ache subdued by an embrace;Causing your fragile heart to race.The rare confessions that are only heard by some,Gazing in the eyes of the hopeful one.The memories that form a smile on your face,Caresses on soft skin that leave a trace.Recurring th
Dear FutureDear future,Am I merely a voice, left far in the past?Where the sun once shoneWhere I once laughedWhere the rain of my eyesPoured down on my lapTurned my face scarletAnd melted my maskDear future,Does the sky still look the same?Its brilliant blueScreaming my nameLending me wings so that I may flyPulling my feathersAnd watching me dieHeartbroken, and crumpled upon the groundBreathing faint wordsIn gasping soundsDoes its beauty still torture me so?Please, dear future, I yearn to knowAm I merely the words from some distant shore?Am I a memory, or something more?Does the snow fall when the sun goes missingOr does it mere
In tribute to a friendFORGETTo forget a promise madeTo forget a heart in painTo forget a friendship's fadeTo forget attempts in vainTo forget the startTo forget the bloody endTo forget what breaks a heartTo forget about about a friendTo forget what you had To forget what you lostTo forget why she's madTo forget cruelty's costTo forget a monster's sinsTo forget an artist's layersTo forget the bloody skinsTo forget silenced prayersTo forget a line of liesTo forget what most would hideTo forget a horrid cryTo forget who's heart will bidePlease forgetForget to have knownForget to have been shownForget everything, You are not alone
You'll get yours soon...Inmense emotional painI can't take it anymoreI feel so sickWhat am I even living for?All these nightmares I faceAll come from you, My former love..These deep feelingsI can't get rid of..The sadness always evolvesExtremely hard to control the painEven harder to control myselfTo still remain saneAll sadness turns into rageUntil everything is bloodstainedEven after letting out all this emotionNothing here has been gainedI will NOT be the victimI will not play your gamesSoon enough hate will consume meAnd you will burn in fucking flamesYou never fucking caredEverything you ever said was bullshitYou've l
No More..I thought you cared for meBut I was clearly mistakingLeaving you with my heartThat you had no problem breakingDriving me down to hopelessnessYou're the only one to blameBut why should I mope over you?Why should I play your little game?I know you're scumFor what you've doneBut I still debateAre you the one that won?Should I quit?Give up on living?Let you get away with thisAnd again be forgiving?Let defeat have its wayWith my soul?Live the rest of my lifeKnowing that you have my heart you stole?No, Why should I dieA beaten man?I avoided this painBefore this shit even beganI'm done sufferfing for y
Did I ever thank you..?I slam my fist hardAgainst the cold wallWhat did I do wrong?What made our relationship fall?Cause in my mindI can't stop asking myself whyWhy the hell did you go?Why did you say goodbye?The more I think about itThe more I wish it didn't startYou've broken meFucking shattered my heartYou have always known thatYou were the one I'd bleed and kill forBut I never would have guessed thatYou'd turn out to be another fucking whoreDid I ever get to thank youFor the times we had together?Even though I love you so muchI hope you burn in the netherDid I ever get to thank youFor mentally killing me?Mentally suff
Endless SufferingSitting in disturbing silenceLife slowly kills meEndless pain and sufferingIs now all what I seeI stare outside to the moonSearching for some sort of peaceBut solace is nowhere to be foundMy hope again decreasesOnce again finding no comfortAsking myself why did I tryFalling then laying on my sideI again began to cryI lay on the floor helplessThe suffering goes onLife is truly painIt will never be gone